Waiting

trapped is how I feel
I want to talk with you
but I cannot
locked between wanting and need

such a hard cruel place to be
just me trapped here now
yearning to hear your voice
heart beats dying embers

throw all care to the wind
and ring
no this cannot be to push beyond
this is not my path just yet

I yell and scream your name
but it is only in my head
no outward sound betrays
the way I really feel

closed emotions running high
consume me slowly from within
will this be my eternity
to wait and never hear

14th August 1999